I am very intelligent.
I don't say this to brag, or because I'm proud of it (though admittedly I am a little vain about it). I say this because it can be both a blessing and a curse.
It's mostly a blessing.
One of the curses of it though is that my mind moves very fast (this is one of the reasons I'm a fan of marijuana). There's also the illusion of multiple tracks. We can't actually process multiple lines of thought [current research demonstrates] but my opinion is that we can have the illusion of it. If you flicker a row of lights only illuminating one bulb at a time, you can have the illusion that all the lights are on at once if you're fast enough. It's a question of process speed versus observational speed.
This can lead to gridlock though. I started this blog and immediately thought of about a thousand and one things I wanted to do. Yet, I am not triplets. And one can get bogged down in thinking about so many things that the 'doing' gets left behind.
Especially when I have so many things I want to do in a short span of time with only one me to do it. There's such a thing as being so smart you sort of come back around to 'stupid' again.
So instead, I thought I would get down to the 'doing'. This is it, and since it's impossible to figure out which of those thousand and one things take precedent, telling you about that does. Then what comes next won't be in order of importance, but rather whim. I can create order from it later with links to this and that.
I'll write my FAQ later. I'll blather on and on endlessly about hypnosis later. I'll show you bits and pieces of me, always.
So let's look at a little bit of what is on my plate, and what I'm looking to in the future.
I moved to the Bay Area recently and have begun what I pretty much consider Life 2.0. It has been a time of tremendous change, and while change is wonderful...it is also terrifying. I closed my private practice in Southern California and my office. I currently only offer live sessions through NiteFlirt. I also have a current contract providing services (counseling and case review) for a large corporation that eats up about fifty hours a month (and since I am a contract worker, provides no benefits.)
I am also involved as a founder in a tech. start up. NDAs are wonderful things and I can't discuss it at all. Obviously I hope this makes me filthy stinking rich. In reality, it's probably a wonderful learning experience that eats up most of my spare time, and stretches me to the snapping point in fantastic ways.
My focus, as you can see, is almost completely on my online hypnosis work; primarily erotic hypnosis currently. I love what I do, and because I love it so much the financial end of it can feel beyond awkward. I am certain this is why it took me so long to transition from my mainstream practice to erotic hypnosis. I always found billing to be difficult even with mainstream hypnosis, and having a buffer of paperwork helps somewhat. Erotic hypnosis work is pleasurable on a much deeper level, as is the intimacy with many of my clients. It feels like hosting a wonderful dinner party where you've had the time of your life and hope your guests have as well...then presenting them with a bill.
Ugh.
Lucky for you I have a friend named Olivia. Olivia is also a hypnotist (and an extremely talented one). Olivia also does erotic hypnosis, and works on NiteFlirt. It was through her that I learned about NiteFlirt, and it was only through her prodding that I assented to try it out. She walked me through the process of creating a listing. I can do everything through their platform and while NiteFlirt's 30% cut is a bit steep, its comparable to office overhead.
She also referred to me my first regular client. I mention her quite a bit because she's my favoritest little girl in the whole wide world, Chrissy. This is also the reason I'm around...because NiteFlirt underwent some upheaval shortly after I joined (severing from Keen, etc.). Flirts were no longer able to promote listings, which caused new accounts to be almost unfindable for people to call.
This would have caused me to retreat back to my private practice and my world would be very different right now, as might yours.
Instead, because Olivia had pushed me and referred some clients to me, my listing was 'popular' enough to be high in the standings. Which meant that others could find me and call me as well. Which meant that my erotic hypnosis practice went from something I could only do on a limited basis 'on the side' ...became my full time profession.
And one that is still developing. I'm still developing both my profession and my business and suspect this will continue to be a lifelong process. There's just so much I want to do, and not enough hours in the day to do it all.
I threw up a website when I first started online, and of course planned to develop it further, but its languished now for almost a year. There's a blog attached to the site, but despite paying a monthly fee to maintain it...I think I've made perhaps one entry! I also own a 'mainstream' hypnosis site that I've intended to develop for my regular practice (which I may never resume now!); and I've thought of refitting that for hypnosis recordings.
Recordings! Oh I need to make some! These require scripts! I have to write! Stories!
Can you see where this is going?
I actually do have a hypnosis recording script written. It's a sci-fi 'mind fuck' that I'll be testing out on my Pixel Boy some night this week, as he's my current guinea pig. I ran it by Olivia months ago (did I mention how wonderful she is?) and she loved it. I think the biggest deterrence to recording it will be some of the production elements I want. I was schedule to meet with a producer (an actual sound guy...yes. Did I mention how anal I am?) a few weeks back and due to chaos that hasn't been rescheduled.
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So this is me. It's all very raw. I could write entries, and then edit them and make them pretty and eloquent ... but that would require more time than I am willing to allot to the blog (sorry, I love you but I am only one me!) and it would be a polished version of me. Perhaps that's a better idea. I know for many the fantasy is best when one always looks their best.
But, that's not me. This is.
And this is all about me. Isn't that why you're here?
-M
Monday, February 21, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
First Post!!!
Oh boy do I have a lot to say! First things first though...
First, I'd like to welcome you to my blog. I have a blog on my website, but I've never really bothered updating it. Oh, I started with the best of intentions but I'm extremely busy (also lazy) and since I have to jump through flaming hoops to update that blog...well...there's one post to it.
So welcome to my little corner of the web that I will update. Promise! If it becomes problematic, I'll update that too. I suspect that this will be much easier to maintain though.
What can you expect here? Hmm. I will discuss some work issues, however I will guard my clients' anonymity. This means that names may be changed, situations slightly tweaked. There won't be any way for anyone to know who they are. I have strong opinions about the society we live in, and cultural attitudes towards sex...but that's another post. I wish there were no consequences for one's personal activities (which harm no one!) but alas...the real and wonderful world we live in is otherwise at the moment.
Which is why I also must protect my identity. I don't even like to think about the personal and professional consequences I could face.
So all that aside, work stuffs which will interest, titillate and delight! It will also be a place for me to 'dump' as it were, a place to let my hair down a bit and decompress about work. A place for me to express clinical and personal opinions.
My place. Got it? ;)
As such, I'll also discuss many other things which interest me. Some of them will probably not interest you. Stick around for the stuff that does, and perhaps some of what I say will broaden your world. I could ask nothing better.
Money. Oh, one of my least favorite subjects. I cannot tell you how much I dislike dealing with it. It's one of the reasons I really enjoy billing platforms (such as NiteFlirt). It completely removes the need for me to do my own billing, or discuss anything as crass as renumeration with my clients. When I have had to bring up the uncomfortable issue, it feels much like having a wonderful dinner party...then presenting a bill to my friends. Awkward.
I bring it up here and now for a couple of reasons. First...this is my living. I have to keep that in mind, even as I'm sure at times I will not. I have a wide variety of clients whom I like and love. Political opinions will vary widely, and there's no surer way to lose a friend than to argue politics. Since I do not enjoy having all like minded friends (or clients) there will be times where I must hold my tongue, or avoid some topics. I may even choose to remove posts for this reason...though I hope it never comes to that. I won't (I can't!) ever present an opinion I don't truly hold simply to please...but I may need to remain silent at times.
Religion is another area. I am an atheist and frankly I don't think much of religion. That being said, most of my friends (and clients) are religious people. I do not respect their 'religion' but I do greatly respect them. The person I loved the most in the world was a person of deep religious faith, as such when I think or say perhaps that religion is 'dumb' I'm certainly not saying the people I adore are 'dumb'. Again, religion and politics are a great way to lose friends...I may [mostly] avoid the topic.
Sex? Oh yes let's talk about sex! There will be lots of that, and I will attempt to be clear when I am speaking as an expert, and when I am expressing my opinion.
Hypnosis? Oh yes, there will be lots on that! Again, I will strive to be clear when I am speaking as an expert, when we're discussing facts, and when I am expressing opinion.
Other topics? I have a broad range of interests. I'm a geek, a gamer, a foodie, a book lover, and lots more.
Whatever brought you by, stick around. The party is just getting started.
-M
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