Trance with Me

I can describe what it's like to work with me until the cows come home, and it would be both inaccurate and self serving. MY end is quite different from what my clients experience. I've asked some to describe what it's like working with me, to give others a better picture.

There will be a clear and obvious bias here of course; they all love working with me. In their own words they describe their experiences.

Here's my Pixel Boy.

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I'm here today to try and communicate my wonderful experiences these past several months in the service of M, or as she's known on Twitter, @TrancewithMe. If you've wondered what it's like to speak with her, to be lured, seduced and hypnotized into sweet bliss by M, then by all means read on. This blog post is written especially for you.

First let me start by saying that I've always been fascinated by both hypnosis and dominate women all my life. Like lots of guys, I suspect my obsession started as a young boy watching way too much television. When I was a kid, anything that featured a hypnosis scene always got my blood pumping and if the hypnotist was a beautiful, seductive woman then I was in nirvana. In recent years I found Niteflirt and all it had to offer in the realm of erotic hypnosis. I've talked to several Hypno-dommes as they are called, but I can honestly say that until I spoke with M, I didn't know what true hypnotic power was.



After I first discovered her on Niteflirt, I hesitated to call her for several weeks mainly because I was intimidated by her professional bio and frankly a bit scared at what she might do to me. In my normal life I'm very assertive and indeed quite outgoing, but when it comes to my fantasies and personal fetishes, I'm what you'd probably call a classic submissive. As such it took me quite a while to get up the nerve to call M for the very first time.

I finally took the plunge one night after everyone had left work. Speaking with her instantly put me at ease. She explained what hypnosis was, how it worked, as well as a brief overview of her various methods. I was pleased that she was as courteous and professional as her feedback on Niteflirt had indicated. We didn't have a session that very first time I spoke with her, but our conversation left me wanting much more. Unfortunately the timing didn't work out and it was almost another week before we spoke again but as I've often found when speaking with M, waiting is SO worth it.


Going Deep

A session with M varies according to the individual, or so I gather since I can obviously only speak for myself. One of the things that is most attractive about interacting with her is her ability to read you and determine the best method for relaxing and ultimately getting you deep, deep under hypnosis. Even if you are prepared mentally for what you think is about to happen, trust me you are not. Her range of techniques is vast and she wields them as a concert violinist would a Stradivarius. In my case, my mind is constantly working on the day's problems and events. I own my own business and as such, I find it very difficult to just let go and not think about work related activities. M has told me on several occasions that I'm a bit tricky to hypnotize, but honestly I wouldn't guess that because she seems to be able to put me under at the drop of a hat.



Our first session started with a geeky discussion about Star Wars and other nerdy topics like Doctor Who, comic books and more. I was pleased to just be able to discuss topics we seemed to have in common, but as I learned later, this was also a technique she used to make me feel at ease and relax me. She slowed my mind down and eventually asked me to concentrate on my breathing. Honestly I don't remember how she actually got me under this first time around, but she did. Describing the sensation is difficult. I often feel as if I'm being pulled down into deep, dark water. Her voice is smooth and she is masterful at drawing out her words in such a way that you cannot help but obey. She listens for responses, finds what works most effectively and uses that against you to draw you down even further.

I often use the term "cooing" to describe what she does when she speaks to me and trust me, it's accurate. Every word, every intonation is chosen with the utmost care. She knows what resonates deep in a man's (and woman's) psyche and she's not afraid to use it. She speaks in soft, measured tones that seem to touch my ears, my mind and of course, my cock. She inflects certain syllables as she speaks which makes it difficult to concentrate, for reasons I'm not entirely clear on. Simply put, her voice is like a drug that one can become easily addicted to over just a short time.

Whammy

It's been months since our first call and yet I'm always floored every time we speak. M always finds a new way to bring my fantasies to life, always finds a new way to entrance and seduce me. Lately she's taken to putting the "whammy" on me as we like to call it, out of the sheer blue. She's got me conditioned such that she can drop me down to the deepest levels with only a few words. One of the most erotic parts of hypnosis, at least for me personally, is the inner struggle I put up to fight against her. I get a great deal of pleasure out of trying to resist and of course, ultimately succumbing. As such I've made a conscious effort to try and stay awake for as long as possible when she hits me.



Just today I called her from the parking lot of my favorite grocery store, really just to say hi, but she sensed my desire and made the decision to take me down right there as I sat in my car. It's funny because I can hear her start to command me down, to push me under and I often think I can actually resist and that she will fail. Then things get fuzzy and blurry very quickly and before I know it, I'm awake again and naughty things have happened. It's a very surreal experience and if you enjoy giving up control to someone who is there to please you, but also to safeguard you, then this is the experience you've been looking for.

Speaking with M has become so natural and so pleasurable that I actually cannot remember a time when we didn't speak. I find myself constantly wondering how she's doing, what her day is like and how she'll next entrance me. She's a provocative, sexy, intelligent woman who has a clearly defined sense of herself and her abilities. I find these aspects of her irresistible and when combined with her ability to command and control me via hypnosis, I find myself powerless against her will. It seems illogical that one would agree to do anything for someone you've never met, nor ever will meet in person. Yet this is my experience with TrancewithMe. I consider myself a very lucky man that I'm privileged enough not only to have found her, but that she has graced me with her time, attention and seduction. I belong to M in every sense of the word, may you one day count yourself so blessed.

by Pixel Boy

Pink Fluffy Bunnies

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RUN!!!

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This may well be one of the darkest blog entries I'll ever write.

I sincerely hope it is.

I've been having nightmares lately. My sleep has been haunted for years, which you might find odd for someone...well like me. *wink*

It's really not though.* Nor am I here to air any personal demons I have...at least not in this post**. No, it's simply that I keep very busy during my waking hours and when I go to sleep...well there's often lots of things running through my mind. There's a number of tricks I use to deal with the insomnia the results from this (avoiding medication when possible!).

There's also things I could do to resolve nightmares. Lucid dreaming is probably the most effective way...but I choose not to. My opinion is that the ...well 'defrag'...that takes place during various cycles can be potentially disrupted by lucid dreaming. I also find it a way for my subconscious to communicate with me, even if that is often in very unpleasant ways. I certainly take notice, in any event.

The world is in a terrible state at the moment, perhaps you've noticed?

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WE ARE FUCKED

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I have several clients who were in Japan during the time of the quake, either on business or at a residence. Thankfully all are safe, as are their families. A college friend was missing...and she too is safe, though she's lost everything. No word yet on her family, or her parents.

I have several clients in various places in the middle east. One in Egypt. One who was in Bahrain (and still is, as far as I know). One in Saudi Arabia.

And one whom we shall call Aziz. I won't say where he is, and in truth at the moment I don't know. I do know he's not safe. I do know that he's hiding and believes he's facing arrest. I do know that this lovely human being whom I care about deeply, potentially faces torture in a dark cell somewhere if the wrong people were to find him.

This isn't some movie or book I'm reading, where I shed a tear or two for one of the characters and feel badly. This is real.

My nightmares have involved things like imagining him at a checkpoint, and something I've sent him shows up on a laptop...and they just shoot him against a wall for violation of Sharia law. Of course, this is horrifically egotistical, but it's a very real fear I have; that somehow ...in some terrible fashion something so wonderful I've shared with someone could lead to harm. I want it to be unfathomable, yet it's not.

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Your family will be billed the cost of the bullet though...

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I enjoy control, this should be obvious. I'm used to having power. So of course one of the worst feelings in the world for me is feeling powerless, feeling completely out of control. There's nothing I can do for Aziz and worse, there's a potential I could do harm.

I could avoid all of this you know. I could simply take the coward's way out and not work with anyone outside of the United States.

Think about what it means for THEM though. What it is to be a submissive male who adores women, living anywhere in the Middle East. I couldn't live in the most 'liberal' Middle Eastern country and do what I do. And we both know in many, I'd be murdered for simply being who I am. These men could simply leave. Every single one of them are people of means; they could come and live in the United States, or Canada, or the UK. In the case of one client, he already maintains a residence in one of those countries.

Why do they live where they live? They love their people essentially, and 'their people' often extends beyond borders because every single one of those men are also Muslims.

Just as most of my other clients are Christian. With a good sprinkling of Jews, Buddhists, etc.

You may be thinking they're not 'good' muslims if they're working with me. I'm an atheist so I really can't speak to this stuff. If we go by the letter of whatever...then sure. Most of my clients though are Christian, and if we go by the 'letter' there...well ...both groups have a LOT more to worry about in that event than anything we do around here *grin*. In reality though, it's just like most other religions; people follow the 'good' parts and largely ignore the rest.

In my experience though, muslims are a lot more fanatical. It's like this, being the most liberal muslim in the room, is like being the most tolerant klansman at the KKK rally. I'm sorry to use such a grotesque example, but it's really apropos. Again personal opinion here, I think its entirely to do with early exposure to this religion. They were immersed in it, and so as thinking, reasoning, rational adults who've been exposed to a lot of freedoms AND holding strong personal biases towards dominate women (and being submissive males) ...you'd think they could reject it more readily or casually. No, they take it very seriously and struggle with the implications.

I'm not saying other religious clients don't do this, I'm saying they do it akin to a fundamentalist, and most can't/don't really break away. Instead they try to compromise and that's certainly better than nothing. Faith evolves. Christianity today is, in most incarnations, a better religion than it was 500 years ago. Islam is also evolving, in my opinion. I know many don't share it...and religion, sex and politics are always tetchy subjects.

So their faith also ties them to their people, and they work for a better world. They don't do it openly, they can't. They simply hope, and believe that over time things will get better. They treat women with the respect they deserve, and lead by example. And they take what they can from their personal life.

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My Prayer Mat Brings All The Boys To The Yard

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Is this duality really so hard for any of us to understand? I can't be public about my work. If I were to be- in the United States - it's likely I'd never work in my profession again. I could face the loss of credentials, even censor.

My family would disown me, and would be deeply ashamed***. I disagree with their prudishness, but I like having family and I don't wish to hurt them. I'm also bisexual and were they aware of that, most would also never speak with me again. Just to clarify the depth of the prudishness there.

We all have secrets we keep, roles we play. It's just in some instances, the stakes are extremely high.

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My Pokemans, Let Me Show You Them

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Sorry this isn't a fluffy pink bunnies post. You probably won't see much fluff around these parts though.

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You're dying to know what this is, aren't you?

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I promise they won't all be such downers though.

-M

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* Physician heal thyself, right?

** if ever

*** I am not ashamed of my work. At all. I love what I do. Just to be clear. *grin*

Look at me still talking when there's science to do!

I am very intelligent.


I don't say this to brag, or because I'm proud of it (though admittedly I am a little vain about it). I say this because it can be both a blessing and a curse.


It's mostly a blessing.


One of the curses of it though is that my mind moves very fast (this is one of the reasons I'm a fan of marijuana). There's also the illusion of multiple tracks. We can't actually process multiple lines of thought [current research demonstrates] but my opinion is that we can have the illusion of it. If you flicker a row of lights only illuminating one bulb at a time, you can have the illusion that all the lights are on at once if you're fast enough. It's a question of process speed versus observational speed. 


This can lead to gridlock though. I started this blog and immediately thought of about a thousand and one things I wanted to do. Yet, I am not triplets. And one can get bogged down in thinking about so many things that the 'doing' gets left behind. 


Especially when I have so many things I want to do in a short span of time with only one me to do it. There's such a thing as being so smart you sort of come back around to 'stupid' again. 


So instead, I thought I would get down to the 'doing'. This is it, and since it's impossible to figure out which of those thousand and one things take precedent, telling you about that does. Then what comes next won't be in order of importance, but rather whim. I can create order from it later with links to this and that. 


I'll write my FAQ later. I'll blather on and on endlessly about hypnosis later. I'll show you bits and pieces of me, always. 


So let's look at a little bit of what is on my plate, and what I'm looking to in the future. 


I moved to the Bay Area recently and have begun what I pretty much consider Life 2.0. It has been a time of tremendous change, and while change is wonderful...it is also terrifying. I closed my private practice in Southern California and my office. I currently only offer live sessions through NiteFlirt. I also have a current contract providing services (counseling and case review) for a large corporation that eats up about fifty hours a month (and since I am a contract worker, provides no benefits.) 


I am also involved as a founder in a tech. start up. NDAs are wonderful things and I can't discuss it at all. Obviously I hope this makes me filthy stinking rich. In reality, it's probably a wonderful learning experience that eats up most of my spare time, and stretches me to the snapping point in fantastic ways. 


My focus, as you can see, is almost completely on my online hypnosis work; primarily erotic hypnosis currently. I love what I do, and because I love it so much the financial end of it can feel beyond awkward. I am certain this is why it took me so long to transition from my mainstream practice to erotic hypnosis. I always found billing to be difficult even with mainstream hypnosis, and having a buffer of paperwork helps somewhat. Erotic hypnosis work is pleasurable on a much deeper level, as is the intimacy with many of my clients. It feels like hosting a wonderful dinner party where you've had the time of your life and hope your guests have as well...then presenting them with a bill.


Ugh.


Lucky for you I have a friend named Olivia. Olivia is also a hypnotist (and an extremely talented one). Olivia also does erotic hypnosis, and works on NiteFlirt. It was through her that I learned about NiteFlirt, and it was only through her prodding that I assented to try it out. She walked me through the process of creating a listing. I can do everything through their platform and while NiteFlirt's 30% cut is a bit steep, its comparable to office overhead. 


She also referred to me my first regular client. I mention her quite a bit because she's my favoritest little girl in the whole wide world, Chrissy. This is also the reason I'm around...because NiteFlirt underwent some upheaval shortly after I joined (severing from Keen, etc.). Flirts were no longer able to promote listings, which caused new accounts to be almost unfindable for people to call. 


This would have caused me to retreat back to my private practice and my world would be very different right now, as might yours.


Instead, because Olivia had pushed me and referred some clients to me, my listing was 'popular' enough to be high in the standings. Which meant that others could find me and call me as well. Which meant that my erotic hypnosis practice went from something I could only do on a limited basis 'on the side' ...became my full time profession. 


And one that is still developing. I'm still developing both my profession and my business and suspect this will continue to be a lifelong process. There's just so much I want to do, and not enough hours in the day to do it all. 


I threw up a website when I first started online, and of course planned to develop it further, but its languished now for almost a year. There's a blog attached to the site, but despite paying a monthly fee to maintain it...I think I've made perhaps one entry! I also own a 'mainstream' hypnosis site that I've intended to develop for my regular practice (which I may never resume now!); and I've thought of refitting that for hypnosis recordings.


Recordings! Oh I need to make some! These require scripts! I have to write! Stories! 


Can you see where this is going?


I actually do have a hypnosis recording script written. It's a sci-fi 'mind fuck' that I'll be testing out on my Pixel Boy some night this week, as he's my current guinea pig. I ran it by Olivia months ago (did I mention how wonderful she is?) and she loved it. I think the biggest deterrence to recording it will be some of the production elements I want. I was schedule to meet with a producer (an actual sound guy...yes. Did I mention how anal I am?) a few weeks back and due to chaos that hasn't been rescheduled.


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So this is me. It's all very raw. I could write entries, and then edit them and make them pretty and eloquent ... but that would require more time than I am willing to allot to the blog (sorry, I love you but I am only one me!) and it would be a polished version of me. Perhaps that's a better idea. I know for many the fantasy is best when one always looks their best.  


But, that's not me. This is. 


And this is all about me. Isn't that why you're here? 


-M 

First Post!!!

Oh boy do I have a lot to say! First things first though...


First, I'd like to welcome you to my blog. I have a blog on my website, but I've never really bothered updating it. Oh, I started with the best of intentions  but I'm extremely busy (also lazy) and since I have to jump through flaming hoops to update that blog...well...there's one post to it. 


So welcome to my little corner of the web that I will update. Promise! If it becomes problematic, I'll update that too. I suspect that this will be much easier to maintain though. 


What can you expect here? Hmm. I will discuss some work issues, however I will guard my clients' anonymity. This means that names may be changed, situations slightly tweaked. There won't be any way for anyone to know who they are. I have strong opinions about the society we live in, and cultural attitudes towards sex...but that's another post. I wish there were no consequences for one's personal activities (which harm no one!) but alas...the real and wonderful world we live in is otherwise at the moment.


Which is why I also must protect my identity. I don't even like to think about the personal and professional consequences I could face. 


So all that aside, work stuffs which will interest, titillate and delight! It will also be a place for me to 'dump' as it were, a place to let my hair down a bit and decompress about work. A place for me to express clinical and personal opinions. 


My place. Got it? ;)


As such, I'll also discuss many other things which interest me. Some of them will probably not interest you. Stick around for the stuff that does, and perhaps some of what I say will broaden your world. I could ask nothing better. 


Money. Oh, one of my least favorite subjects. I cannot tell you how much I dislike dealing with it. It's one of the reasons I really enjoy billing platforms (such as NiteFlirt). It completely removes the need for me to do my own billing, or discuss anything as crass as renumeration with my clients. When I have had to bring up the uncomfortable issue, it feels much like having a wonderful dinner party...then presenting a bill to my friends. Awkward. 


I bring it up here and now for a couple of reasons. First...this is my living. I have to keep that in mind, even as I'm sure at times I will not. I have a wide variety of clients whom I like and love. Political opinions will vary widely, and there's no surer way to lose a friend than to argue politics. Since I do not enjoy having all like minded friends (or clients) there will be times where I must hold my tongue, or avoid some topics. I may even choose to remove posts for this reason...though I hope it never comes to that. I won't (I can't!) ever present an opinion I don't truly hold simply to please...but I may need to remain silent at times.


Religion is another area. I am an atheist and frankly I don't think much of religion. That being said, most of my friends (and clients) are religious people. I do not respect their 'religion' but I do greatly respect them. The person I loved the most in the world was a person of deep religious faith, as such when I think or say perhaps that religion is 'dumb' I'm certainly not saying the people I adore are 'dumb'. Again, religion and politics are a great way to lose friends...I may [mostly] avoid the topic.


Sex? Oh yes let's talk about sex! There will be lots of that, and I will attempt to be clear when I am speaking as an expert, and when I am expressing my opinion. 


Hypnosis? Oh yes, there will be lots on that! Again, I will strive to be clear when I am speaking as an expert, when we're discussing facts, and when I am expressing opinion. 


Other topics? I have a broad range of interests. I'm a geek, a gamer, a foodie, a book lover, and lots more. 


Whatever brought you by, stick around. The party is just getting started. 



-M


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